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  Thursday   December 7   2006       09: 52 AM

I've been quieter than usual, if there was only a mind-oriented psychic blog, that read one's thoughts and posted them, photos and all, well, there would've been a whole lot of posts. Yet, my laptop decided to do the polar opposite, and finally went "belly up" and is, hopefully, safely at Apple repair, being tended to very carefully, and not losing an iota of data on disk, and methinks I left a DVD in it, and there is not much I can do about it.

I'm going through lap-withdrawal -- it is so odd to be on the eMac, and deal with having to move over to it. And it is so not full of the current data I need to access, or mail, or addy's or..well, it's out of date, and so is the OS and programs and it isn't set up for my eas of use.

I know there are soooooo many other things that require positive vibes, way more worthy, but if y'all got any spare bits left, let's hope for a new keyboard that really really works, a CRT that doesn't go black at it's whim, or have a hot spot, and a CD /DVD drive that does what it should, not be flakey, and a bunch of progs that are supposed to be compatible with 10.4.8 /dual Intel chip Macbook Pro native start to work without crashing and losing gobs o' work and /or data finally resolved, if it is a hardware thang, and that my battery isn't a killer battery that is gonna burn down the wee thing, and the icing on the cake would be that it comes home soon!!!

I didn't get to do all I hoped to do before it left for Macfixitworld because it truly went haywire and made a growling noise, methinks it was the hard drive, and it would let me stop it until I pulled the power and then removed the battery. I think it's sick and I want it all better, and fer free since I paid for the extended warranty, although I'm sure there will be loopholes galore that are exceptions that will have me pay out of pocket.

Speaking of out of pocket.............KaChing!!! Yes. I am getting way closer to hoping to get my passages cleared at Clear Passage, which would firstly allow me to avoid abdominal surgery. The subsequent benefit potential is that if I have no more stomach pain (although that will be a toughie, as, the stomach problems started prior to the gall bladder surgery which created the new problem of the adhesion(s) which in turn can have me resolving it via N/G tubes so part of the problem might be eliminated which would be HUGE but not the entire issue...) but if they do a lot of body work that eliminates a lot of the pain I have 24x7 now, then I could back off on the pain meds, which, according to Dr Waite is one of the reasons I have a lot of personal black holes in my grey cells. I truly have a teeny tiny appreciation for what Mom went through at the onset of her Alzheimers, as I have been told that there have been times when I ask things over and over again, and not remember that I already asked it, and /or had an answer.

Of course I remember how it drove me nutsy (but I'd love Mom to be at that early stage now..) having to constantly repeat myself, and it was hard to not feel like she just didn't listen or care back then since she was otherwise in good working brain order...but now I know how it's easy to think that people are trying to pull something over on you...a "Gaslight" moment of sorts.

I still, and I know part of this is FMS, but it has exacerbated, have major brain farts when I try to talk. It can manifest in my forgetting what I was about to say, was saying, or can't find a simple, common word that is in my vocabulary when I try to communicate. It is awfully frustrating.

But, I have some truly good news. Miz Kim iz coming with me to Clear Passage!!!!!!! She blows my mind. She is self employed, and for her to take 2 weeks off is definitely a hardship. But beyond the financial, she will be leaving her fiance, her family, her house, her personal projects at home, her family, her cats, Baby and KatKat who is still in her kittenhood, and all this because I don't think I can do this solo.

She isn't even much of a believer in this process, but she's not getting involved in that detrius after she knew I was going to go, and that Dr Waite is ok with it, [and if he thought it a totally ridiculous, outrageously hopeless venture, he would not be shy in telling me so] Kim says she'll be with me to help me in any way I need her.

The flights are outrageously pricey, and L O N G !!! To date, as I look around, the best possible option is one stop from SEA to GNV an 8.5+ hour flight, but with 15+ hours from here to there...ack. I get pretty beat from a round trip to Oak Harbor, and a round trip to visit Mom at WSH is a killer, and so I can not begin to imagine what this trip will do to my body and sleep and mind.

Did I mention 3 out of 4 flights are "red-eyes"?

And I have no clue about how much restriction is in effect. I used to always bring my own water. I don't think this is possible now. Oh my. I also used to bring my "necessaries" with me on the plane, and most of them include undies and such, but also Rx, and makeup and washing goodies.

So this will be a tough time getting there fer sure. But how I will be once I arrive? Who knows. I sure hope that Belinda can give me some positive information that other long distance people have used to minimize the negative impact of the long journey.

Oh, did I mention none of the flights have food? LOL and there will be naught for me to have at the connecting airport to eat, as I'm a vegetarian, and a "partiallly hydrogenated oil" abstainer...for years now I think it is. It was my 'tip of the hat" to healthy eating, and I don't knowingly slip, and I know that most "machines" or fast foods are full of "partialies" (more commonly known as trans fats).

So as Gordy hacks up a lung, and avoids all my suggestions for him to make an appointment, I shall sign off and start to "dip the duck" as he calls it, or maybe just annoy him to pieces that he'll go to simply shut me up!

Pax
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